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"i miss you.. more than you probably think."
i miss you too.
♥ Sunday, December 25, 2011 @ 16:26
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i was bored. ended up reading past posts.
observation:
i was truly depressed
i hated a lot of people
i hated a lot of other things
i was emotionally unstable
i was self-destructive
i was suicidal
haha. i think some of the statements above should be written in present tense.
my own thoughts bringing the past to the present.
i haven't forgiven
i haven't forgotten
i don't think i could
i don't think i want to.
thinking about one small thing
destroys me all over again.
memories triggered
accidentally
by a scene
by a person
by a scent
by a phrase
by a touch
sends me back where
sends me back when
sends me a crashing wave of everything
unwanted
unexpected
uncontrolled
unimagined.
my own thoughts
consuming
suffocating
drowning
killing me.
my own memories
transforming the past
into the present
once again.
♥ Tuesday, November 22, 2011 @ 16:38
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purposefully torturing myself with dklscmsdguih89ocvklnsbaiojfmvncq90w[fruvjnsdkm 89nj
aahh. what the hell.
i'll be better tomorrow.
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tense
regressed
fell
♥ Friday, November 11, 2011 @ 20:17
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missing someone. a friend. hm. mag-church kaya ako every friday sa victory para makita siya.. :))
infatuated with someone. curious. interested. observe observe observe... stalk? hahaha. no.
trying to be happy-go-lucky. HAHAHAHAHAHA. hindi mo kaya yun! hindi ka naman kasi ganun. i'll still try though.
what happens then?
what must i do?
♥ Tuesday, November 08, 2011 @ 19:35